As much as I love to go back and post latest sketches and get serious at improving my bad skills at art, I also love getting down in business improving my skills that I need for work and I would also love to increase my workload at my current job online. It doesn't pay much, but at least I get to buy things I need and/or want instead of relying on other for help - which kinda pisses ppl off, lol.
Anyways, Its either:
WORK or ART...
I have soo many thing I WANTED to do! I have Maddy-neko's almost 1 year present about her old ID about two Mystical Creatures. An old unposted Sketch that I'm about to redo; hanging with Erin doing old yahoo voice calls. An unfinished gift for Cheappirate. And soo much moooooooore (Specially... Humanized Mane 6)! Dammit! I wish I had a clone for myself to do things I want!
On the other hand. Since I'm a fresh college graduate I have to think ahead and pave a way for a better future. Thought art is a passion which ppl sometimes regard it as a hobby, I, on the other hand find it as a way to express myself; emotional or physical.
The way is clear, I should think more practically and rationally at my situation. Though art is a skill that other would trade in for anything, nor do I find it useless by any means. I have to place my 'love for art' on hold, at first I;m not an art student - its not an excuse why I should stop - I have to think whats best for me in the long run and where the greener pastures lay wake.
Though I've stopped for such long time and why bother posting this 'piece of crap' which I call a pathetic excuse for a Journal Entry. I would just like to let out this deep, suppressive and painful feeling that I've kept for soo long inside me to the people that I've disappointed on such a long time through this Journal. I wouldn't be surprised if they wouldn't forgiven me, and I'm sorry for letting them all down. I would just hope that we could all just forget everything and just move-on... hopefully~~~
But as for a stance of my final conclusion, WORK has outweighed everything that I've prioritized since I've graduated.